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underneath the stars

"Before you, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars-points of light and reason... And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn't see the stars anymore, and there was no more reason for anything."
~Edward Cullen ~

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Wednesday, April 30, 2008
lols..
4/30/2008 09:41:00 pm

am bored... will update tmr when i got more time.
now,i shall post these 2 quizes i have taken,from kagami's blog.... hahas. she took the quizes and so i took them... bored ppl do this kinda stuff,i suppose... first 2 is from her blog... the rest is cos i was real bored.. ahaha. enjoy...

you are dimgray
#696969

Your dominant hue is red... you are passionate, energetic, and unafraid of life's changes. You're all about getting out and trying something new, even if it means taking risks that other people would be afraid of. Hey, if they're afraid and you're not, more power to you, right?

Your saturation level is very low - you have better things to do than jump headfirst into every little project. You make sure your actions are going to really accomplish something before you start because you hate wasting energy making everyone else think you're working.

Your outlook on life is slightly darker than most people's. You try to see things for what they are and face situations honestly. You'd rather get to the point than look for what's good.
the spacefem.com html color quiz



oh,gosh.
You Are 80% Obsessive
You tend to have obsessive thoughts, and sometimes these cross over into your daily life.
While everyone does have a few weird rituals, you have to work to keep yours from taking over your life.
How Obsessive Are You?


anyway,this is AMAZING!


Sunday, April 27, 2008
officially singaporean!
4/27/2008 05:55:00 pm

that's it! i'm officially singaporean! [with the singapore attitude of non-stop complaints,whining,and kiasu-ness! no offence,seriously..]


friday's night sky was marvellous. look at the moon outside,above my window :]





saturday,at the ceremony

the stage where we will go on to receive our certs and I/Cs if we have them...


we had a demonstration as to how we should say the pledge [right fist on left chest] and how we were to receive our stuff [a cert and I/Cs for those who are of age] later. we even had to pose for the camera. gah...the horror. i wasn't in my best-looking state,but i guessed i would do.. amazingly,i saw my neighbours there on the same row of seats... the live on the same floor,just a measly 4 houses away. 50strides away,at the most.


the ceiling of the Nee Soon East CC where they held the ceremony.. we then watched videos abt welcoming us to singapore,and some parts about the history of singapore.

as if we havent already learnt this stuff in school during social studies...

the G.O.H., Assoc Prof Ho Peng Kee,gave a speech and them gave out out stuff. he's got nicknames for some of the kids when they posed for the photos.. "future soccer star!" "singapore idol!" he ejaculated,smiling and laughing racously at his jokes. i could only smile weakly at some of them.

i went on stage soon after,all rigid but trying to do my best. i walked w/out slouching, had a plastic smile on my face, and muttered a polite "thank you" when he congratulated me. the plastic smile was still stuck until after the photo shoot where i hurried to get off stage,doing it in a UG style. God,i almost marched off stage! [i was rather good at this sort of stuff.. i just have to feign interest and smile,like i always do. but i do believe UG had contributed to some of the stage-rigidness. must be the nerves...]

afterward,we needed to say the pledge and sing the national anthem.. i was reminded of last year's school NDP celebration where i was flag-bearer. how i missed those days...


the booklet in which hold the SS stuff abt singapore... look at the elaborate words on the cover..
so flowery. it looks like a cloud,trying to obscure the "bad" things about singapore.. [once again,no offence to anyone...]

the amount of stuff they put in the bag was ludicrous. so many pamphlets,so many magazines for the various districts in the NorthWest CDC... imagine the amount of paper wasted.... there were about 200 of us at the ceremony getting our citizenship..


the ceremony ended on a good note. a lady promted me to be a member of the library during the buffet after the ceremony,where everyone was ushered out to the foyaré where a buffet was served. they had halal food and vegetarian food served. how thoughtful.

under her seemingly ardent and persistant 'pleas',i filled in one of the forms from the pile in her hand in good grace. seems to be the only way to get her off my back,the old bag.. anyway,this meant i no longer had to rely on others to help me borrow books or lend me their cards anymore. so in a sense,i was doing both the lady and my peers some good.



i've finally finished reading these 2 books! i hope i can find book 3,if that is already out.. it seems i was right that Bliss is Schuyler's sister,the other daughter of Allegra Van Alen. sometimes,these things are just so invisible,so predictable,so expected.

i have once again fallen in love with vampire stories,and now i love them more than ever.

Blue Bloods, Masquerade.

Melissa De la Cruz



the clouds in the sky are just darling today... such wonderful shapes in the clouds... i bet i could watch the skies all day and night and never get bored of it ever....






my life, my sins...



Saturday, April 26, 2008
あきらめない!
4/26/2008 01:42:00 pm

love the lyrics,so here it is...
EVANESCENCE LYRICS
"Going Under"

Now I will tell you what I've done for you -
50 thousand tears I've cried.
Screaming, deceiving and bleeding for you -
And you still won't hear me.
(going under)
Don't want your hand this time - I'll save myself.
Maybe I'll wake up for once
(wake up for once)
Not tormented daily defeated by you
Just when I thought I'd reached the bottom
I'm dying again
I'm going under (going under)
Drowning in you (drowning in you)
I'm falling forever (falling forever)
I've got to break through
I'm going under
Blurring and stirring - the truth and the lies.
(So I don't know what's real)
So I don't know what's real and what's not (and what's not)
Always confusing the thoughts in my head
So I can't trust myself anymore
I'm dying again
I'm going under (going under)
Drowning in you (drowning in you)
I'm falling forever (falling forever)
I've got to break through
I'm...
So go on and scream
Scream at me I'm so far away (so far away)
I won't be broken again (again)
I've got to breathe - I can't keep going under
I'm dying again
I'm going under (going under)
Drowning in you (drowning in you)
I'm falling forever (falling forever)
I've got to break through
I'm going under (going under)
I'm going under (drowning in you)
I'm going under
MUSE LYRICS
"Time Is Running Out"
I think I'm drowning
Asphyxiated
I wanna break this spell
That you've created
You're something beautiful
A contradiction
I wanna play the game
I want the friction
You will be the death of me
You will be the death of me
Bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it
Our time is running out
Our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out
I wanted freedom
Bound and restricted
I tried to give you up
But I'm addicted
Now that you know I'm trapped sense of elation
You'd never dream of
Breaking this fixation
You will squeeze the life out of me
Bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it
Our time is running out
Our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out
How did it come to this?
Oh
You will suck the life out of me
Bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it
Our time is running out
Our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out
How did it come to this?
Oh


Friday, April 25, 2008
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4/25/2008 11:46:00 pm

huhu~ here to update! there are no pictures so you can dont view,or [DON'T!] click this:


[edited to insert pictures,26th apr 2008]

monday
oh gosh. sambal chili and mango pudding eat together? koonie,are you trying to get ppl into trouble here...?
maths and english breezed past the day,only to end horrendously with physics..
we did a skill 3 write-up practice.
i dont even understand what is considered the 'correct' way to put together a logical experiment!
it was "to investigate how the size of a piece of paper affects the rate it falls"
something similar,anyway.
my instructions had no need for diagrams to be drawn and our dear mrs yeo threw me skeptical looks when i wanted to explain. what can i say,then?
i loathe physics.
bought fries with esther and meiyen. dorothy didnt want any..
home-d with them! finally,after so long,this is like,the first monday to be allowed home so early!
the esctasy in that piece of information was rather over whelming for me...
we ate on the bus,and esther and meiyen got headaches... poor dears..
it was raining outside,though... so maybe the rain caused it..? [zijing was thankful she didnt get it. she's extremely worried about her neurotic checkup 2 weeks later...]
anyway,zijing tied her rubbish into this:
looks like those dragondoat festival we eat those chinese dumplings....

zijing got splashed by the rain again,but today had been a wee bit better as only haf the skirt is wet.
they put ammonium-based fertilisers for the tree saplings under my block... i live on the 9th floor and can still smell it for hours!! it was like having sh*t all over the house.
phew!
went to see doctor.
there were too many patients and zijing didnt get her acupuncture. her poor knees....



tuesday
terror tuesday.
EARTH DAY!!!!!
rainy day.
look at all the umbrellas at the side of the class...

el was okay...
and so was chem... we rushed to finish the chapter and we did. 3 cheers!
everyone was so super tense-up! and studying the whole day!
after recess was SS test. i forgot the question,but i knew i had nothing to write,and i probably wrote a whole load of crap. i'm so gonna die.
studied physics during maths [sorry,mr tan!] anyway,he saw,and was like "you will get numb from all the exams...blahblah..." got some tips from 4/1 and so we knew what was tested,but i can only HOPE for a pass...
the tips were helpful. thanks, HengHup,MingLiang! [must put small in case ppl say we cheat!]

went for AP for a measely half hour and watched OP with YY instead of doing work. zijing,you should be working!!!
home-d with yy!
nice sky in the afternoon,on the verge of rain...



wednesday
wacky wednesday.
bio test end of day on reprod. in man.
PE had to be best.
standing board jump personal record of 184cm!
sit and reach personal record at 40cm!
it was sucky,but hey,at least i tried!
did bio in maths. mr tan talked about this: why are rapists not castrated?
this is so as to prevent them from turning into murderers,as rapists tend to want to dominate others,and if they dont have theie regular "release",they might start to kill ppl. ugh. at least we learn something new.
i love integration.
zijing did a stupid thing again...

"where's the lock?"

its actually in my left hand!!!

and i actually spent a good 2 minutes looking or it!!! gosh,zijing,how much more stupid can you get? esther got a good laugh. oh well. at leat someone is happy.
slept for about 10hours! *ta-da!* recharged!
oh,my homework!



thursday
less tragic... slight stomachache,but i'm okay!
zijing forgot to bring her wallet!!!!! stupid zijing!
played games in dream studio after going thru grammer worksheet.
zijing + dorothy VS esther +meiyen!!!
they won us by 1 point,and we actually had more hard words! [which wasted a lot of our time...]
so,yay! zijing + dorothy! hahas
mrs veda didnt come today... everyone was doing physics or maths lor. [some were talking] so cute la,our class.

me and esther started playing w/ our dogs...

from bottom up: yuki, alexis, vicky, sakura, chibi.

zijing talking to chunyou and got caught on camera... esther!!!

esther playing and swinging her hair around... silly,crazy, dear.


read chinese newspaper uring chinese.
physics was okay-ish. went thru worksheets and some homework...
went to hall for an "earth day" talk.
the talk made sense but the play/dance afterward was just so erm i suppose none of the student audience appreciated it,though.
SS remedial. did a worksheet and wrote mostly crap. i dunno how to write!!!!!
real worrying there.

and zijing set about thinking of her motivationss,and they were not difficult to find. she just had to look at her shelf... 14 prizes + 1 medal!!

work hard,zijing!




friday
freaky friday [yes,i know,the movie...]
zijing had the urge to don on her guides uniform today!
almost late with jean and bao...! we must jiayou to be early!!
maths was okay... went through 6.1 & 6.2
mr tan is such a nice person to talk to. i guess sitting in front has its advantages after all,if teachers are nice.
went thru chem paper during chem lesson.
i failed the test,but i will try harder!!

xiuwei tied the poor octopus to the screen...


audrey lost her wallet and we spent chinese class trying to look for it.
didnt find it in the end...
speculation is that its stolen during maths class,cos rosanna lost money during maths lesson too...
dont cry le,audrey!


read a nice book called Blue Bloods by Melissa De La Cruz. but susan had to return it tmr!! gah.
geog.... teach new chapter then went for the sec3s' presentation on deforestation... didnt understand what they were saying.
the slides are good,but people are restless AND the presenters were either mumbling or rushing thru. you need more experience and professionalism,ppl!
went to the library w/ esther and dewi [the kiwi] to do maths,but in the end didnt do a lot. esther slept,i read,and dewi was the most productive. [she's the one who did the most amt of questions]
on the way there: my sole came off! yes,shao! i know you saw! i changed into esther's shoes. [she had extra cos that time go clara's house didnt bring home or something.... cant remember all the details...
gossipped during lunch @ KFC!!! gosh,the juciness! went to NTUC to get my lunch. saw joy and clara there.
its like they go there everyday?! everytime go there will see them de lor.
anyway,i found Blue Bloods and Masquerade [bookII]!!! borrowed them with meiyen's card. [she went amk library aftward]




i hope for a better tomorrow!
work hard,
study smart,
and last of all,
do our best and be the best! [last part is my pri sch sch motto]



lala~
4/25/2008 08:59:00 pm

i knew i was evil. heh! but heck...

Raw evil score: 64.44%


anyway,i watched this on koonie's advice. its super funny pls!
"achmed the dead terrorist"


will update later... hehheh =]


Sunday, April 20, 2008
whoops
4/20/2008 08:47:00 pm

is got some things forgot to put in de wor!
buffet that time Sir Izuan took a photo w/ the guides!
i love his uniform!!! it was super shuai de!
aiyo mendi.... you are so cute de la! the dance... i almost rofl le...
wa... NCO party at the GG room door!?look at Sir Izuan's uniform!!! so nice!!!
kite and zap! [in a wu-zhuang pose!?]
koonie and jaslyn!
i am missing you....


UG Commissioning Ceremony,18Apr2008
4/20/2008 05:13:00 pm

this will be a super long post so if you on have the patience please leave.
because i might drone on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on........
friday was the UG Commissioning Ceremony.
this means,that after the ceremony,WE HAVE OFFICIALLY STEP DOWN!
i feel the nostalgia all around.
on one hand,i'm just relieved that i now have more time for my studies,but i really miss all my dear sweet juniors!!!
backtracking.....
wednesday
pe lesson i did something stupid during the training for the napfa tests...
i used the standing board jump mat for long jump... and totally wore the wrong the shoes....
as expected,i fell. on my knees.
i did have hell to pay for... my knees hurt and were groaning at me to let them rest but i couldn't. not when friday was the ceremony...
they were,of course,going to let me pay for it.
thursday
the much awaited 2.4km day.
we took class photo before the 2.4.
and we [me and chuping] have flag training afterward.
2.4...... i wanted to get it over and done with as soon as possible.
my knees were hurting from old injury [the one i got a year back during my posting camp]
i ran anyway.
esther was rather worried and infuriated at me,but i let it pass.
i wont let her talk me out of it.
pulled meixin for the run. we both did great!
meixin,dont be sad! we can do it!
in the end,we only had flag training for about 1 and a 1/2hour.
we were kinda slacking but who cares!?
friday
the day has come.
i was so worried the whole morning.
this had been a day of turmoil.
morning-fall in,and due to the rain there was a beautiful rainbow.
what a beautiful ending to our sec4 guiding/UG life.
choinged for class later.
maths.
chem test.
recess.
chinese.
geog test.
ceremony rehearsal.
ceremony.
had to wait so long for the principal la. my knees protested again.
i got major cock-up during the ceremony!!! oh God. i was never going to forgive myself.
after the ceremony,it was the seniors and the upper studies time to have a buffet.
so interesting.
mendi did a dance la. so super cute de lor.
photo frenzy again!!!
guides room.....

my patrol got 45 points wor! second in position ne~!
NCOs arh... why our table so messy!?
then is lyk the room is a store room more than a UG room leh... all the junior de bags...
untidy shoes!! i've caught you red-handed,ppl!
the occasionally-used tents in the corner of the room...
cant see this clearly cos the glow-in-the-dark moon and stars on the cupboard is not very bright de wor!

games for junoirs after ceremony...
they play,while we do sai-kang...
wow! go guys!!! jiayou NCC land!!!
still at it.... stand so tall! be careful!!
chuping!!!! peeping tom!?!?!?!briefing for the second game...
follow the leader wor! all blind-folded de! me and koonie go bully them nia... got this NCC boy i think... we both keep poking him.. sorry,boy!

koonie in her marvellous pose la. lol.
koonie again... she like stoning lidat de wor! den i took this and she was lyk: haha,zijing.
me and koonie doing froggy jumpp.. missing the cadet days!
koonie acting tall again... koonie,grace.
audrey,mel,grace,koonie,meixin,zijing [from top left in clockwise order]
sam and mel playing "mum and maid". then we all joined in. i was 92. so lol. but fun!
NCOs and sec3s looking at the previous leaders and teachers playing captain's ball...
mel drinking bubble tea...

FINAL COMBINED UG FOOTDRILLS TRAINING BY UPPER STUDIES!!
i'm going to miss this the most lor.
the UGLs only can take part.
credits to GRACE for helping to take these pictures!
falling in before the training...

ke kenan lurus!
pandang ke hadapan pandang!
yand tinggi ke kenan,renda ke kiri,dalam satu barisan peras!
dari kenan,satu dan dua bilang!
nombor ganji satu langkar ke hadapan nombor kenap satu langkar ke hadapan,kra!
samula! not straight!

they are still playing...
there we go again!
orang yang di sebelang kenan diam.
nombor ganji ke kenan,nombor kenap ke kiri,barisan ke kenan dan ke kiri pusing!
ja tigan tiga,barisan cepat jalan!


ke kenan lurus!
marching....
nice belok!

wa! 17 files wor! henta kaki~~
17 files marching!
very straight!!!
senang diri!
here we go again!!

another nice belok..

wahaha! tired le! negotiating for water break! we got 8minutes in the end!!! the negotiation was super hilarious de la!
"no,sir!"
"THREE minutes?"
"no.sir! got many people!"
"got other water cooler ma... FOUR minutes?"
"no,sir! the water cooler too far!"
this went on for about 3 minutes with much ease. so funny!!!
work hard after the break!!!

17 files again wor! we are superb!!






hormat ke kiri,hormat!

henta kaki,henta kaki~~~




final debrief!

all the wonderful memories~~
i'm going to miss everyone,really.



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